Found my way back here after a year or so. Read my stuff from back in a day. Not disappointed by the stuff.
OK. So maybe there wasn't that much stuff to begin with. And my WoW rant was written after heavy drinking with my pals so... that's an excuse I hope.
Much has changed this past year, but I stayed pretty much the same. I think. I'm not feeling ashamed by the stuff I wrote back then so... that's good. You know that feeling. Looking at a picture of this rebel in his teens or the drunk video from that night or same essay I had to write for school and just thinking "Oh my God... what the fuck was going through my head back then.
A year has passed. What's new? I dropped 22 kg while getting fit. Gained 12 back after the summer. Spent my summer jobless and focused on my priorities and stuff. Working out and through that making more life goals and shit. It kinda worked. After I got in shape I realized that it didn't change how I saw myself and that it wasn't the way for me to be happy. Happy is a state of mind. Happy is the feeling you get when you are right where you want to be. Not physically. Mentally. You can't get happy by reaching your goal. You'll just find a new goal and still be miserable. After I realized that I felt like I was finally on the right track and felt happy. It wasn't an instant change. Took me a few months to realize things on the outside and then on the inside. The whole process if you like.
After that more and more things went my way. Even found a girlfriend like a month ago. That's cool. Been a while. Like a few years. Don't get me wrong. I'm not some shut-in without hope or something. I was just really pessimistic about the whole relationship thing. I'm quite good with the girls, but I wasn't looking for anything serious and I am really picky when it comes to girls. So lucky me I guess.
Sooooooo...
What I want to say is: A lot has changed. I changed. But stayed the same. My "world view" changed. But my opinions stayed the same. So... the old with the new?
