Found my way back here after a year or so. Read my stuff from back in a day. Not disappointed by the stuff.
OK. So maybe there wasn't that much stuff to begin with. And my WoW rant was written after heavy drinking with my pals so... that's an excuse I hope.
Much has changed this past year, but I stayed pretty much the same. I think. I'm not feeling ashamed by the stuff I wrote back then so... that's good. You know that feeling. Looking at a picture of this rebel in his teens or the drunk video from that night or same essay I had to write for school and just thinking "Oh my God... what the fuck was going through my head back then.
A year has passed. What's new? I dropped 22 kg while getting fit. Gained 12 back after the summer. Spent my summer jobless and focused on my priorities and stuff. Working out and through that making more life goals and shit. It kinda worked. After I got in shape I realized that it didn't change how I saw myself and that it wasn't the way for me to be happy. Happy is a state of mind. Happy is the feeling you get when you are right where you want to be. Not physically. Mentally. You can't get happy by reaching your goal. You'll just find a new goal and still be miserable. After I realized that I felt like I was finally on the right track and felt happy. It wasn't an instant change. Took me a few months to realize things on the outside and then on the inside. The whole process if you like.
After that more and more things went my way. Even found a girlfriend like a month ago. That's cool. Been a while. Like a few years. Don't get me wrong. I'm not some shut-in without hope or something. I was just really pessimistic about the whole relationship thing. I'm quite good with the girls, but I wasn't looking for anything serious and I am really picky when it comes to girls. So lucky me I guess.
Sooooooo...
What I want to say is: A lot has changed. I changed. But stayed the same. My "world view" changed. But my opinions stayed the same. So... the old with the new?
Apr 16, 2013
Mar 6, 2012
Aliance vs. Horde
So I thought I'll share some of my interests with you. Specifically World of Warcraft. So I play a worgen death knight as my main under a nickname Hydero on Drak'thul-EU.
(If you don't play WoW and you don't plan to, you should stop reading right now, 'cause you probably won't understand or care about what I write next.)
So... I've been playing for alliance for about 2 years now. I've been playing WoW since vanilla and I was playing orc hunter back then for a few years. You might be wondering why I switched sides. First of all I'd say "Cause I wanted to experience the other side of it all." and "After all those years it feels all the same to me." But that would be a lie. I switched sides 'cause I remember what it was like starting to play HORDE back in a day. That's the truth.
Let me explain. Back in a day playing for the horde felt like being the underdog. Everybody was playing aliance. Every last one of those 'heroes' was playing aliance. Why? Because aliance was good and horde was evil. I didn't play horde because it was evil. I played horde because I was not evil. I didn't believe horde was evil. C'mon I played Warcraft 3 (as well as Warcraft 1 and 2 and expansion for War2 along with all Blizzard games back then), I KNOW horde is not evil. They were just misunderstood. And I don't mean that in emotional (pussy) kind of way. I didn't care if I was misunderstood or not (say whatever you want but you choose your character and alliegence based on your own goals, priorities, feelings, etc. in real life as well as in virtual one). I chose it because I knew I felt like I was doing the right things and I stood by those decision, even though everybody else seen those decisions as wrong. But it's just a matter of perspective. Everybody thinks that his way is the right one.
Most of you don't remember vanilla as it used to be. Aliance was strong in number. Horde was weak in numbers but mostly far more skilled/experienced. There were guys who played horde because they were 'evil' and didn't know a thing about Warcraft and all of its lore. I placed myself higher by saying I chose the horde for all the good stuff. Stuff like honor, loyalty, strength, going against all odds. But at the end of a day you just release no matter which side you play you are playing for the good guys. If you're playing for the aliance, you think of the horde as brutes and savages with no greater goal than just killing innocents. I you're playing for the horde, you're just frustrated. "How in the hell can those aliance hypocrates call themselves righteous and call us the beasts, the monsters, after all they have done." You could always feel the hate Between the aliance and the horde. So pure. Skirmishes all over the world between the factions. And the hate united the heroes of Azeroth. Heroes on both sides of the conflict.
Strong base for each of the factions stayed strong for years. Through vanilla and the burning crusade. My 'For the Horde!' spirit stayed strong even in Wrath of the Lich King. At least in the beginning of the expansion. After unvoluntary break caused by old hardware and coming of Ulduar raid (1fps in raid) I came back. Few months have passed. some of my friends stoped playing and some of them moved on. Once one of the best 'huntards' on realm I was treated like just a memory of the past. Horde ranks swelled. Tons of new heroes to take arms against the worst villains and the aliance scum. But all I really saw were people playing for the horde with only one thought in mind.
'HORDE IS KEWL!'
I was like 'I don't want to play with people, who play for my faction just because all they friends think it rocks.' I made this faction rock with all the ELITE old school heroes of the horde. I started as the underdog, getting camped in Nesigwary camp by groups of high level aliance dogs why still learning the ropes. I was on the frontier of the most epic battles and I was the one of a few crying 'For the horde!' before it became a phenomenom. AND I want be the one playing with all this new leeches of past glories won by others.
So I switched sides. I remember when there was balance on my realm. 50:50 aliance vs. horde. I was reborn as a human death knight but the world was twisted by people who wanted to be in. The balance was gone. For every aliance hero there where 10 horde grunts, who didn't know anything about honor or a fair fight. "YOU TEN LEVEL. WE TEN. FAIR!"
I didn't complain. I am the underdog once again. I crave the challenge and I will pave my path to the top with skulls of my enemies... once again.
(If you don't play WoW and you don't plan to, you should stop reading right now, 'cause you probably won't understand or care about what I write next.)
So... I've been playing for alliance for about 2 years now. I've been playing WoW since vanilla and I was playing orc hunter back then for a few years. You might be wondering why I switched sides. First of all I'd say "Cause I wanted to experience the other side of it all." and "After all those years it feels all the same to me." But that would be a lie. I switched sides 'cause I remember what it was like starting to play HORDE back in a day. That's the truth.
Let me explain. Back in a day playing for the horde felt like being the underdog. Everybody was playing aliance. Every last one of those 'heroes' was playing aliance. Why? Because aliance was good and horde was evil. I didn't play horde because it was evil. I played horde because I was not evil. I didn't believe horde was evil. C'mon I played Warcraft 3 (as well as Warcraft 1 and 2 and expansion for War2 along with all Blizzard games back then), I KNOW horde is not evil. They were just misunderstood. And I don't mean that in emotional (pussy) kind of way. I didn't care if I was misunderstood or not (say whatever you want but you choose your character and alliegence based on your own goals, priorities, feelings, etc. in real life as well as in virtual one). I chose it because I knew I felt like I was doing the right things and I stood by those decision, even though everybody else seen those decisions as wrong. But it's just a matter of perspective. Everybody thinks that his way is the right one.
Most of you don't remember vanilla as it used to be. Aliance was strong in number. Horde was weak in numbers but mostly far more skilled/experienced. There were guys who played horde because they were 'evil' and didn't know a thing about Warcraft and all of its lore. I placed myself higher by saying I chose the horde for all the good stuff. Stuff like honor, loyalty, strength, going against all odds. But at the end of a day you just release no matter which side you play you are playing for the good guys. If you're playing for the aliance, you think of the horde as brutes and savages with no greater goal than just killing innocents. I you're playing for the horde, you're just frustrated. "How in the hell can those aliance hypocrates call themselves righteous and call us the beasts, the monsters, after all they have done." You could always feel the hate Between the aliance and the horde. So pure. Skirmishes all over the world between the factions. And the hate united the heroes of Azeroth. Heroes on both sides of the conflict.
Strong base for each of the factions stayed strong for years. Through vanilla and the burning crusade. My 'For the Horde!' spirit stayed strong even in Wrath of the Lich King. At least in the beginning of the expansion. After unvoluntary break caused by old hardware and coming of Ulduar raid (1fps in raid) I came back. Few months have passed. some of my friends stoped playing and some of them moved on. Once one of the best 'huntards' on realm I was treated like just a memory of the past. Horde ranks swelled. Tons of new heroes to take arms against the worst villains and the aliance scum. But all I really saw were people playing for the horde with only one thought in mind.
'HORDE IS KEWL!'
I was like 'I don't want to play with people, who play for my faction just because all they friends think it rocks.' I made this faction rock with all the ELITE old school heroes of the horde. I started as the underdog, getting camped in Nesigwary camp by groups of high level aliance dogs why still learning the ropes. I was on the frontier of the most epic battles and I was the one of a few crying 'For the horde!' before it became a phenomenom. AND I want be the one playing with all this new leeches of past glories won by others.
So I switched sides. I remember when there was balance on my realm. 50:50 aliance vs. horde. I was reborn as a human death knight but the world was twisted by people who wanted to be in. The balance was gone. For every aliance hero there where 10 horde grunts, who didn't know anything about honor or a fair fight. "YOU TEN LEVEL. WE TEN. FAIR!"
I didn't complain. I am the underdog once again. I crave the challenge and I will pave my path to the top with skulls of my enemies... once again.
Mar 5, 2012
Hello World!
So we were encouraged to write a blog at one of my classes and I was like: "Yeeeeeeaaaah, riiiight... like I have time for that... suuuuure." and "Yeeaaaah and what should I write about? I dunno anything about anything really."
Than I checked the blogger out on my google account and found out that I already have a blog. Empty blog with ugly green template and some stupid nickname created a few years back. Back when I was still an adolescent REBEL. So I looked through some new templates and found a pretty sweet one. "Ok, that looks good." So I went on to writing a name of the blog. The only thing I could think of was getting over a class as I always do. Actually I was screwing with the blog just to kill some time cause I was pretty bored. "Yeah, kewl hipster name with kewl hipster template: KILLING TIME ...BORED TO DEATH! That's how I want to present myself!" I thought sarcasticly. Been looking at it for a while...
"fuck it... why not... whatever..."
Stayed that way for a few days (actually just a few) and now I find myself writing these words and am feeling like my grammar is total bullshit and feeling pretty much stupid 'cause it's just some rant caused by sleep deprivation and boredom. I think I just got a bit fed up by all those TV series and movies I watch and all those hours I spend in a magical world named Azeroth. On top of it all I'm pretty frustrated over the cast on my leg 'cause it blew all my plans of alcohol induced adventures and soon to come skiing trip to Austria.
"argh... rant-train crashed... quickly!!! think of something to write about!!! you can't end your first post like this! Austria? Who gives a rat's ass about your skiing trip to Austria, man?"
"fuck it... gonna watch some family guy or something..."
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